HI FRIENDS. First off, I’m sorry it’s been so long since I’ve written, but I promise I’ve had good reasons. For the most part at least. Let me just fill you in quickly on all the new stuff that’s been happening in my life…
After graduation, I had about a month before I left the Soo for the summer. That was one hectic month, filled with packing and seeing friends and family before I left. Then, I made my way downstate where I am working as an Area Director for a Christian summer camp. Now, Area Director sounds super fancy and whatnot, but I basically get paid to take care of the counselors and have fun. So it’s pretty much the best job ever. Anyway, training lasted for about 3 weeks, which seems like a long time, but it breezed on by.
Now, I have some even more excited news to share with you…
This upcoming fall I will be pursuing an internship with His House Christian Fellowship! I’ll be focusing on women’s ministry and can’t wait to see what God has in store. I will have to raise support for the upcoming year in order to support myself financially, so I spent several days in Chicago last week at a fundraising boot camp. I’ve learned so much about raising support for the ministry and enjoyed getting away from camp for a bit.
Okay, so now that you’re more up to speed on all the excitement and happenings in my life, I’ll slow down a bit and share my thoughts on all that’s been occurring…
Leaving home and all that was familiar to me has been…interesting. It’s the first time I’ve left and been on my own since before my dad passed. Leaving the people who were constantly supporting me was something I had to face and it certainly wasn’t fun. I knew I was coming to a Christ-centered camp filled with incredible people, but none of them knew my heart or what I’d been through. Opening up and sharing that piece of me has been a challenge and I still haven’t quite figured out how to effectively communicate it.
Even though some awesome men and women of the Lord surrounded me, I struggled with feeling lonely during training. I didn’t (and still don’t) know how to talk about my dad or his death without feeling awkward or without worrying I’m making others feel awkward. But it’s imperative that I share my story with others, for it’s an experience that has changed my life in countless ways. Not only that, but it is deeply ingrained in me and who I am today. Also, I LOVE being able to talk about him. I want people to ask about him (so if you’re reading this, don’t hesitate to start asking away. Seriously). My dad is a big part of who I am today living life without him sucks, but being able to share him with others is a blessing to me.
Thankfully (and not so thankfully), there are two incredible women that I work with that have also lost their fathers. When you’ve been through the loss of a parent, you just know. It’s a breath of fresh air to just be in their presence at times, not necessarily talking but just being around them. While I wish they didn’t have to experience the heart wrenching loss, I am so thankful for both of them and that God led each of us to this very place.
With that being said, I’ve experienced so much more healing while here. God has continuously been revealing himself to me in new ways and teaching me more about Him. My fellow staff, whether they know it or not, have been teaching me so much about Christ just in the way they serve and love others.
Transitions are always the hardest, though. Moving through various stages and places through life is bittersweet, but I’ve really tried focusing more on celebrating the time I had with my dad. This shift in thinking has been a bit of a challenge, but it’s well worth it. I find that I am more thankful when I think this way, for it brings about more joy and strength.
Camp has been the first place that I’ve shared my “new” testimony. Sharing the story that God has started writing through my life has been a huge blessing to me. More than that, I’ve found that I have this greater sense of urgency and passion in sharing the transforming love of Christ. Being able to share all the wondrous works God has been working in my life brings me so much joy and hope, as well as reminds me that God is the ultimate provider. I am so thankful for the trust that I have in God. I fully know and believe that I will be sustained and cared for, no matter what I may experience in this life. It’s scary imagining the deep waters I’m sure I’ll have to go through again, but I have a faith that will not be shaken and a God that will always rescue me. Praise Him!
P.S. I’ll be sharing more on specific things I’ve been learning, but first wanted to catch you up on all the exciting happenings going on in my life. Stay tuned!